Emma and other writers...my inspiration :)

yea, another post in under 1 hour...hahaha...

just read emmademarais numb3rs post, love it so much. it's so sweet. it makes me go 'awwww...' enuf said! :)

speaking of emma, other that this fantastic writer, there're bunch of other fan-fic author that i 'stalked'...either on LJ or FFN, or some other site that i happened to find on my quest to quench my fan-fic thirst. so many that i seems to forget their name as of this exact moment lol.

so, umm...enuf for now. later ya.

new fic in da making :)

ehhehehe... >:)

my yellow fic; 'sweet love' got a review, and what make it more lovely is that the reviewer is another fan of GohTaki, just like me...squeeeeeeeeeee :))

and insipred by his/her comment, i am now on my next fic, after my failed attempt at reviving 'sweet escape'. the idea is there, just that i need to determine the title...it's about taki and his insecurity towards goh's feeling. oopsss, spoiler alert lolz.

so, between what happen this morning and me having to handle it alone...lesse if i can squeeze in some fic-typing as well....

Lost

I found this creation of Dan Brown, and thinking it represent my feeling/life so well...

Lost in a world, that scares me to death,

Lost in a crowd, I'm losing my breath.

Lost as a kid, lost as an adult,

I need to grow up, don't think I can.

Lost as a person, can't find my way.

Lost in life, every day.

Lost in worry, who am I?

All my life, I've lived a lie.

Lost to kindness, lost to love,

Lost in a sky, like a new-born dove.

Lost in thought, which I shouldn't do,

It winds me up, I can’t get through.

Lost to comfort, all kind words,

Lost to advice, it isn't heard.

Lost to those who really care,

All these people, always there.

Lost in me, I need a break,

Lost in wonder, which road to take?

Lost in a place I don't know well,

Where are you now? There's no one to tell.

Lost here, all alone,

Lost apart from the mobile phone.

Lost still, there are no calls.

I'm struggling alone, to break these walls.

Lost in mind, lost in soul,

Lost memories, they're just a hole.

Lost family, lost mate,

Gone now, yet I'm full of hate.

Lost in a straight world, and I am gay,

Lost now, for what to say,

Lost in boredom, think I'll leave.

There's a lot in life I need to achieve.

-Dan Brown-


well, maybe some lines did not, but mostly are ;)...now, looking for sonnet 18 by shakespeare...

It's Too Late Now

-This is a company fic/poem to 'Suicidal Hope'...

It’s to much too late now

That I know

And I’ll never forget that

Nor forgive myself

Why do I did what I did

Torment him, hate him, and hurt him

While in truth it’s all a lie

I care for him

I love him

I need him

I’m alive because of him

There’s no point of looking back to see what is wrong

Because everything are

Now I wish I could turn back the time

Change the past

Show him that I do care

Hold him in my arms

Smoothen the fears, chased away the monsters

Love him like I should

But it’s too late now

He’s out of my reach

He’s gone

Without ever knowing that I do care

That I do love

That I do acknowledge him

More that he’ll ever think possible

I’m a murderer of my love

-too late-

I ran. We ran. Ran against the time. I knew it, but refused to accept it. My companions; his friends, the ones he never knew he had, each of us fill with guilt. Fear. Shame. We never tell him that we love him. Never show him that we cared. We treated him like the others have, the one who hate him for nothing. It should’ve never been like that. He’s the greatest person one would meet. A caring friend, a good son, a loving partner; and we’ve destroy him.

It’s too late now to apologize. It’s too late now to explain, to set things straight again. It’s too late now to care. And it’s simply too late now to say that I love him.

He’s gone. Vanished from my sight. Fallen in to the darkness, his body and heart broken.

I’m sorry my love.

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Pairing - Could be het, could be yaoi...depending on how you see the story goes :)

Yes, the character commits suicide. Or do you want me to save him? :)

Finally...New story posted

wellowa...

phew...finally...i've posted the Yellow fanfic i made last year. posted it it FFN last night. it's something new for me coz i put some R-rated scene in it...which made me blushed while writing it down...and still blushing when i think about it...

the story, aptly titled 'Sweet Love' is (what else...) about Taki and Goh, and their sweet sexy love. :). it's about 1000++ words...and i didnt even check it before posting hahaha...gonna see how it'll do. so far i think i'm the 1st that submitted a story under 'Yellow' category. T_T why got no fan?????... am i the only one???? whuarghhhhhhhhhhh

well, got 1 more in my black folder. nut it's still not finish yet. or rather...i can just let it stop there...it's a bit dramatic/suspence...so, it'll add some angst if the ending is as it was now...gasp! poor goh! opps...spoiler >:)

till next entry...tatta!

Yellowy Goodness

Yellow by Makoto Tateno

about a year plus ago, i stumbled across a manga which immediately captured my interest. at that time, i was just hooked with the term 'yaoi', 'slash', etc. this one particular title though has 3 volumes (at that time) and after being captured by the front page illustration and the discription at the back, i decided to give it a try. but, 3 volumes? what if the story is not as good as i hope it'll be? so, after much monologue at the shelf and scaring off people, i bought volume #3 and another title. i can still remember my anxiousness to get back home and read it. and after a few pages, walla!!! i'm in love!!! the creator did a very good job with the characters and plot; i was so much in love with Taki and Goh. so, the next month, i went back to my trusted bookstore and get myself vol #1&2. too bad they dun have the final vol yet. i went back home, and fell deeper in love. the next month, i found out that they already have the 4th vol, so.......the rest is history.

out of all four, i cant really decide a favourite. all are good as far as plotline and character-building goes. each book has their own stand-out section (at least to me :)). after reading some reviews on some other manga, i decided to post my own take on my fav yaoi couple...

but...should i do it by vol, or overall at one go???? hmmmmm

next: Yellow Reviews

Teaser

Anime
-Naruto - SN
-Kyou Kara Maoh - CY
-Fullmetal Alchemist - RE, AE
-Prince of Tennis - TR, FR, AR
-DNAngel - SD
-Ouran - Gen
-Angel's Feather - Multi P
-Gakuen Heaven - Multi P

Manga
-Yellow
-Constellation in My Palm
-Love Control
-From Up Above
-Alcohol, Shirt and Kiss
-Duetto

TV
-CSI - MP
-CSI NY - MD, DD
-Numb3rs - CC, Gen
-WAT - Gen, MP

Others
-Hardy Boys
-Mutant X
-Etc

Why it has to be you?

why it has to be you?
when all seems hopeless
you came unannounced
i never expected
to find solace in your arms
the cure for my sorrow
the answer to my misery
why it has to be you?
us is not allowed
our union is forbidden
another story of Romeo and Juliet
but here you are
like a pillar of strength
and i couldn't let go
why it has to be you?

-210509-

Suicidal Hope

I wrote this waaay back last year...based on an anime...

Love sick hate care empty lonely scared fear adore alone darkness tired suffocate wonder light savior help tunnel listen see acknowledge accept worry concern trouble burden frighten hatred despise fault mind right believe wrong trust recognize understand doubt question pathetic useless suicidal blood end heaven secure hell angel devil cut scar bruise hurt damage surrender freedom lie fake faith

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He sat there alone, contemplating on his life

Wondering what his sins are

What he’d done wrong

To be treated like this

He’s only a child, a lone child

No family, no brothers, no friends

Nothing real

He cares for them, why can’t they care for him?

Reminiscing

All he’d ever had are memories

Of being hurt, being broken, losing hope

Everything’s fake, all lies

Smile, laugh, happiness

While in truth its hollow, sorrow, sadness inside

His heart is hurting, breaking

His mind is aching, killing him

His body is reaching, reaching out for help

In the end, his heart broke

His mind numb

His body limps

He swore once to never give up, to keep fighting

Get recognition, acknowledgement he longed for

To be loved, cared, needed

But now he surrenders

Forfeit

Standing up, look up, hands reach out to the sky

Winds blowing softly

Caressing his face, drying the tears

He looked around; the sun is setting down on the horizon

Clutching his heart, wiping the tears

Drawing one last breath

The past are playing in his eyes

The past are playing in his ears

He didn’t see, he didn’t hears

Someone’s coming, footsteps approaching

Hands out towards him

But it’s too late

He steps out

He’s already gone

He’s free of his misery

They ran. Ran against the time. They don’t care anymore, because for them, it’s already too late. Too late to apologize, too late to show care, to late to love, to late to save him from the darkness they put him through. They did this to him. And now they are paying for it. He’s giving up, he can’t wait anymore. Not anymore. And now, he’s gone, for good.

p/s: I prefer to think this is an open genre, compared to the other works i've done.

Chibi Blog

so...this is the chibi blogg to my main one, Arys's Journal.

this is the place i'll post whatever work/creation i ever made...that might get me into trouble lol...

so, till next entry...